"English and I" studies (1) Get used to disgrace yourself

「English and I」 is a book published by Iwanami book company in 2000. This book is that 23 Japanese people write 「English and I」 each other as an essay. So, I plan to pick up all the essaries and think about the topic.

 First essay, Tetsuya Chikushi wrote "English and I" that he thinks. The tittle is "Get used to disgrace yourself". And he was a newscaster in Japanese TV program and a Journalist. Unfortunately, he died because of cancer in 2008.

 

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 At first, he points out that many Japanese people tense up too much in some big  international stages like the Olympic games. He thinks that the main reason is why many japanese people are controled their behavior by society and entrust thierseleves to the standard. Therefore, We must avoid "get used to disgrace oursellf" because almost all us care  estimation from our society. He also insist that the heteronomous norm will make us be paralyzed and hold our natural expression. 

 The reason why he pointed out these things he feels it relates to our face to English. That to say that English of Japanese people  looks like without self-confidence and awkward. But he also  discovered that he got used to, compromised, became a coolness and turned grow when he used his English.

 Finally, when He had to make a speach in english, he often said to audience 「 You will listen to MY ENGLISH. I had to learn diffrent language from ours, So it was hardship too much for me. Therefore, if you endure MY ENGLISH  for a little, it will be a draw.」

 In my case, before I was always ashame my english speaking skill. because, I could not express my atitude and opinion in English. But when I was a student in university, I took a lecture "English 4". The class was taught in english from start to last, because the proffesor was a native english speaker. At first, the students were 7 japanese and 3 americans. But later, students were 1 japanese(me) and 3 americans. So, allmost all japanese students stopped to attend the class except of me, because the proffesor always asked us to tell their opinion in english.

 Maybe, they could not endure the class. But I always attended the class every week although I didnot have enough skill to tell my opinion in english. the reason why I disliked to avoid the hardship.

 Of course, I sometimes feel to disgrace myself because I cannot tell my opinion in english very well.  but finally, I always think that do my best is enough.